. . . and here's the scenario. I was driving home on Saturday night (actually, it was technically Sunday morning) after a terrific evening, and a strange sensation hit me. For the first time in a long time, I actually felt content. You know, that thing where you feel like everything's all right the way it is and everything that's not quite right will be all right in time. It wasn't that a lot of things had changed in my life, (although some things have) but, instead, my attitude about those things was what changed. Think about it, I still have another semester of school left to go. I still have people in my life that irritate me. I still don't think that very many people really understand me and how I think. I still don't quite know what the future holds after graduation. I still have questions about how to handle certain situations with certain people in my life. But, despite all this, I felt like things were all right, and I felt like I could handle them. For example, there's one person in my life that I've never really "gotten." As a result of this, (and this person's lack of understanding of personal boundaries) this is someone I usually try to avoid. Get this: this morning, I actually made the effort (like a big boy) to talk to this person, (who I even hugged!) instead of the avoidance tactic I usually use. Now, this might sound simple, but, for me, this is HUGE.
In other news, I'm now an intern at the Newport Beach Film Festival. It's actually pretty cool, because this was the internship that I wanted, and it ended up being the only internship that I even interviewed at. Not bad for a day's work . . . So far, my job has consisted of reviewing films for possible inclusion in the Festival's line-up. Of course, it's not like I have any kind of defining "say," but I am part of the process nonetheless. I was told going in that the vast majority of the films that I'd be watching would be terrible, but, so far, out of the 5 films that I've watched, 3 have been very good. One in particular was pretty terrific. I really want to tell people about it, but I signed a confidentiality agreement. I'm going to try to talk to my supervisor to find out how much I can say to people, because I really want to spread the word about this film. It's really funny, and, in its own way, maybe, somewhat brilliant. I'll be starting work in the Festival's office the first week of school. (next week)
This is somewhat of an unusually sunny post for me, since I usually talk about how I don't know where my life's going and all of that encouraging stuff. But, you know what? There are a lot of great things happening in my life and one thing is for certain . . .
. . . I have so much to be thankful for.
Peace, Love, & Understanding,
P.S. I'm finally going to see There Will Be Blood on Saturday with the gang. I'll post a review here afterword.